Never let them take you alive

"Someone To Love"

Seth Shapiro got his law degree
He moved to Brooklyn from Schenectady, '93
Got some clients in the food industry
He says it's not the money, it's the recipes

He calls his mom, says he's doing fine
She's got somebody on the other line
Puts Coldplay on, pours a glass of wine
Curls up with a book about organized crime

When it's late, and it's hot
And a date with the Late Show's all that you've got
Don't give out, don't give up
One of these nights you might find someone to love

Beth McKenzie got the job of her dreams
Retouching photos for a magazine aimed at teens
It's Thursday night she should be out on the scene
But she's sitting at home watching "The King of Queens"

There's something wrong that she can't describe
She takes the contacts out of her eyes
Sets the alarm for 6:45
So she can get a little exercise

When it's late, and it's hot
And an hour in the shower is the best that you've got
Don't give out, don't give up
One of these nights you might find someone to love

And you're not the only one who's lonely

Seth Shapiro is trying in vain
To hail a taxi in the morning in the pouring rain
Beth McKenzie sees one just up ahead
She cuts in front of him and leaves him for dead

Wow. For some reason, i can't seem to process that.  School. Is. Out.

I am really happy! this year may have been my hardest year yet, and i'm kind of glad it's over. But i'm also a little sad. Two of my close friends are moving to diffrent cities, and most likely, i won't see them again. And the year felt as if it went so fast, i almost feel as if i'm missing a chunk out of my life. but a small chunk at that.

So many things happened this year, i got a first boyfriend, a first break up, a first death of a friend (two of them) and a first realization that i was depressed.

My friend Keane died. And I really want to dedicate much of this journal to him, but I can't seem to find words. I miss him so much. It's going to be almost a year since he died, and i still can't believe it. How is he dead? he was only 15. Why did God (if there is one) take one so young? He didn't deserve to die. at all. Keane was the happiest, hardest working, most optimistic, and most helpful human being i have ever met. He was a wonderful dirtbike rider, he may have gone on to become one of the greatest, and i do believe that with my entire body and soul. And Keane Moss, I will never forget you.

Also during this year, i formed more bonds. During almost my entire life in school, i've felt an Outsider. i never really fit in, i never had many friends to open up to. I still don't fit in, but i do have some close friends who are always there for me. I had more fun this year. More life. And i really hope it all stays the same.

I wonder what the next school year will bring? Whatever it is, i'll be there.

It's so sad, it's over.

 

Oh, and never believe lies told even by those closest to you. thats a lesson i have learned.

I am on your side- hawthorne heights

 I never meant to hurt you
Sometimes these thoughts have a way making sense
Secrets that we keep turn into accidents
If you burn away the bonds with the fires of selfishness
The positive the negative have a way of blending in

End this now, we've gone too far
Let's take back words that turned to scars
If I could find a way to turn back time
Had to let you know I'm on your side

Took the easy way out I shut myself down
The only way to ease the pain is to drink until I drown
I'll say it out loud my voice is the only sound
So listen up, I'll spell it out
I need your help, I need it now

End this now, we've gone too far
Let's take back words that turned to scars
If I could find a way to turn back time
Had to let you know I'm on your side

Am I now everything that you wanted me to be
tried my best took a shot in the dark and I lost

End this now
We've gone too far
let's take back words that turned to scars
If I could find a way to turn back time
Had to let you know I'm on your side

 

and

Apoligize- One Republic

I'm hangin' on your rope,
Got me ten feet off the ground.
And I'm hearin' what you say,
But I just can't make a sound.
You tell me that you need me,
Then you go and cut me down...
But wait...
You tell me that you're sorry,
Didn't think I'd turn around...
And say...

That it's too late to apologize.
It's too late...
I said it's too late to apologize.
It's too late.
Yeah! 


I'd take another chance,
Take a fall, take a shot for you.
I need you like a heart needs a beat,
But it's nothin' new.
I loved you with a fire red,
Now it's turnin' blue...
And you say...
Sorry, you're not the angel
Heaven let me think was you...
But I'm afraid...


It's too late to apologize.
It's too late.
I said it's too late to apologize.
It's too late.
Whoa!


It's too late to apologize.
It's too late.
I said it's too late to apologize.
It's too late.

It's too late to apologize. YEAH!
I said it's too late to apologize. YEAH!
I'm holdin' on your rope,
got me ten feet off the ground.

It's a rather sad story, a story of destruction. It could be a scary story.

   See, there was once a girl, could have been the happiest alive. She was a dreamer, and a wisher, this girl. One thing she wanted more  than anything in this world was a person who cared for her, someone she could care for. That was her problem.

  The boy in this story, by the name of Jake, was amazing. when he saw this girl, he wanted her more than anyone else. he slowly made it so he could speak to her, gain her trust. once this bond was formed, they fell in love. It's an amazing thing when youth falls in love, their entire world seems to shift. one can open new eyes.

    The girl loved this boy, so much she feared to be without him. He helped her learn about new things, and taught her much. he swore he'd never leave her, he gave her his heart. and whats worse, she believed every word he said.

       later on, this girl hit some hard times. her friend died, and she went into depression. and what did the boy do? he ditched her, not wanting to be burdened by a sad girl. he left her when she needed him the most.

      thiat girl lost herself. she swore never to even think of jake again. but his name appeared everywhere. in her food, her mirror, her photos, her bathwater, and on her wrists in scar tissue. she held on with all she had.

   later on, she realized she never wanted love.

Could I feel anymore apathetic?

There's something you don't know i've walked you off to keep you on your toes.
There's something you didn't know, i've grown some bones, so i can walk you off.

Tonight, tonight, everythings alright, tonight.

If i were in your shoes i'd run a thousand miles just to tell you.
If i were in your room, using just my eyes i would tell you.

There's something you didn't know you've got your teeth in me and it hurts.
And i'm a lie away from saying what i really think, this is the bottom of the bottle saying swim or sink and you don't even need me now.

Tonight, tonight, everythings alright, tonight.

If i were in your shoes i'd run a thousand miles just to tell you.
If i were in your room, using just my eyes i would tell you

it does, though. my cousin is already four. my school year is almost over, i'm ready but not ready for summer to come.

really, i was looking up random bands on myspace last summer, and found some that i liked, who didn't even have a song on itunes. now, they're playing on kerrang. . i feel so out of tune  sometimes.

but hey, i think this is how we all operate. we love to move fast in the direction of success.

"what are you listening to?" says Gordie.

"Nirvana" I reply.

"who is that?"

"what the hammer? you don't know who Nirvana is?"

"uh, no?"

" holy crap. what about AC/DC?"

"no clue."

"my god, what is WRONG with you? and you call yourself a homosapien!"

actually, this made me crack up:

honestly, how was she raised? I wonder how many issues this girl has. ha, I can't believe she even bothered to comment. :P

(tagged by wentzwithglasses)

1. Kiss Me, Kill Me- Mest

2. Send My Love to the Dance Floor, I'll See You in Hell- Cobra Starship

3. The Sharpest Lives- My Chemical Romance

4. Pepper- Butthole Surfers

5. Lying is the Most Fun a Girl Can Have Without Taking Her Clothes Off- Panic! At the Disco

(i tag Kassady, meganhopp, and charleeyoung)

One, two, three
A tragedy that's built on destiny
It left you with everything but
Blood from the knife that I cut your heart out with
Now relax, close your eyes, what comes next is the surprise

This valentine is doomed
The smell of blood has filled this room
If I could do it all again
I would change most every single thing
I would let you

Kiss me, Kill me
Your kiss is torture
But killing me would be too easy

Our tragedy
Seems to be killing everything it sees
Like death itself

This valentine still looms
In the darkest hour, the killing moon
If I could do it all again
I would let you

Kiss me, Kill me
Your kiss is torture
But killing me would be too easy

Kiss me (You're all I'm wanting)
Kill me (This feeling's haunting)
Your kiss is torture
But killing me would be too easy
Killing me would be too easy

Your eyes unwind the tragedy of our lives
My eyes went blind
Believe when I say

Hell burns bright
When this night dies
Hell burns bright

Kiss me, Kill me
Your kiss is torture
But killing me would be too easy

Kiss me (You're all I'm wanting)
Kill me (This feeling's haunting)
Your kiss is torture
But killing me would be too easy

Kiss me (You're all I'm wanting)
Kill me (This feeling's haunting)
Your kiss is torture
But killing me would be too easy

Killing me would be too easy
Too easy, too easy, too easy, too easy

 

this song has the best lyrics, voice, guitars, and drums. i've not been able to find a song i love more than this, even after two years. it is such a beautiful song.

 

 

each week, i'm going to post the lyrics to my favorite song that week. yay!