Never let them take you alive

I remembered. That’s all you ever need to know. All you should know is that I remember so much, every breath drawn, every decision made. You find it strange? Who said it isn’t?

We danced to an 80’s song. Maybe it was 70s, or 90s. I find it harder to pay attention when I feel your thoughts against my cheek.

You had those starry eyes, just like the song that ended too soon for me to comprehend. It left me, like your footsteps on the ground beside mine. We walked maybe miles that night alone, stupored on caffeinated spiked drinks.  Summer was as sweet as a stolen cup of tea, it always tastes better when not paid for. Haven’t you noticed that?

Of course I blamed it on the sun. I’ve hated the brightness ever since you left me. You left because of the dawn breaking, and I’ve not spoken so much to you since. I’ve craved the contours of your face, shadowed. You don’t look as beautiful in daylight, maybe that’s why I prefer you in the rain.

Rain, what a word that is, so short but so lovely. The thought of rain to me is blue, the blue you find where the clouds blend with the sky.

I told you I remember almost everything. I don’t remember the feel of your voice ob the air. I wonder why that is? The night sky did accept it, that’s all I do know of it. I remember so much more, how you hear anything not said, how I told you everything anyway. How I’ve dreamed so hard it made me scream, how I want to fly. How I’ve wanted to leave here for years on end, how I adore the setting sun.

You asked questions, yes. Why did I want to leave? It’s quite simple, really. I don’t fit here; I’m not like an extra grain of sand that can sift into where it lies. If I could be that way, I’d never wish.

When I leave here, you’ll be by my side, that’s one wish. You’ll drive me insane with need, but I’ll love it. We’ll find somewhere where we won’t be found. See, that’s what you get for falling again. Pretty much falling is all I’ve ever known.

I change our subject fast, don’t I? the one thing you can’t stand of me. You also couldn’t stand how fast I ran, always complaining I’d someday fly off in that speed. But I swear, I’d come back for you.

You’re worth more than this.

ack!

thank you all!!!!

i praise you. :)

yes, thanks for searching my locker first when you thought someone had crack.

and thanks for making me take down all my amazing photos in there.

And for the second locker check? thanks for calling my parents and telling them that i had a photo of some guys in their underwear eating bananas hung in my locker.

oh, and BTW? the locker with the dudes eating bananas wasn't even my fucking locker! dumbasses.

to worry about college?

Honestly, i'm too worried. theres no way i'll get into any college without some type of scholarship. but what can you get a scholarship for? i quit gymnastics, so yeah. i'm out of ideas.

WTF with both UCLA and Oxford costing a shit load?

Ok. so i'm insane.

hm...i keep having this really sweet line running through my head, even though it was said about a year ago. :)

1)How are you at the moment?
sick. But pretty good. :D

2) Why?
Because my stomache, throat, head, and eyes hurt. :P but i'm currently daydreaming, so yay! and it may rain soon. :D

3) Give me 5 bestest persons at buzz.
so manny. bah!
 Ashdood,, , ImRadYo, Chemqueen,  Kassady, TheSusieQ, NatalieGray, xshirleyx, falloutkid77, thesusieq, TwilightRaindrops, and i'm sorry if i didn't list you, i think everyone is amazing. :D
4) Do you like yourself?
eh, it depends on the day. Sometimes, i love myself so much, and sometimes i wish i could turn to dust. :D

5) What do you like to do in your free time?
scare the shit out of people, read, write.

6) Do you think you're able to do everything you'd like to [right now, from that place, are you confident enough //not in future]?
"I'm too young to be taken seriously enough." i agree with ashdood.

7) Do you think fighting makes any sense?
erm, sometimes it does. if theres something worth while to fight over.

8) Was last question clever?
if course not. are you self centered then?

9) Which places would you like to visit?
the entire world. mostly Venice, Italy. i want to live there.

10) Honestly, give me one person from buzz, who made you feel special, like their friend?
well, everyone is pretty nice. i'm not used to people telling me my photos or writings are awesome, so this is pretty great. thank you all!
11) What's your mobile phone?
the worlds suckiest Spring Sanyo that gets no service. thank you sprint! you can burn now.
12) Would you like to have (new) one?
yes. but i don't have any monies. :(

13) Do you like to smile?
yes, but i don't do it often enough.

14) Write poems?
lyrics are funner, but yes.

15) Eat?
vodka cookies. :D

Of course i eat. or i'd be dead by now.

16) English?
falalalala it's sadly the only language i speak.

17) French?
PSH, i do wish. i'll take that in college.

18) Slovene?
uh...no?
19) Polish?
falalalala
20) Sports?
used to do gymnastics, wish i could do show jumping, want to start fencing.

21) Internet?
it's to serious. and taken too seriousaly.

22) Do you think life gets better or worse day by day?
opinion.

23) Are you nervous or calm person?
both, i guess. I'm usually rather hyper.

24) Is there any message you'd like to tell the world?
uh...the entire world? become fucking Lennonists.

And eat vodka muffins. :D

25) What's your favourite line in the song?
"so tell me baby, pretty baby, that this house is not a graveyard."

26) The cutest thing you've ever heard?
bah. 

27) Do you love your parents?
Of course.

28)What would you do if tomorrow is the last day of your life?
oh wow. everything illegal, drown a tree in vodka, get beaten with a sack of money, make 7th graders eat muffins, cuss someone out, and hug everyone in sight.

29)Do you often think about death?
i always worry about it, though i don't fear it. I try not to think often about it, but i can't help it. I'm fasinated by it to a large extent, sadly.

30) Is this the last question?
no, the last question is in Kelseys pants.

I don't know who to tag. uh...Chemqueen, DecayedApple, NovemberUncertain

yes, it required caps lock.

http://krazykayleigh.buzznet.com. AVOID HER. she's a fake who steals everyone elses photos.

ah, she will BURN.

if anyone sees people with my photos on their page, please tell me and report it. I HATE people who claim others work as their own.

Taking photos is not as easy as it seems. it's not just a snap of the damned shutter button, you have to position, find great things to take photos  of, adjust lighting, etc. it can be pretty fucking hard.

So please, don't steal photos. it's not nice, cute, cool, anything. and by claiming to be someone else just makes you a lot worse in my eyes. so just...don't.

Ok, so i made a trip to Kentucky a while ago. And my camera card was lost in my baggage. but i found it, and i'll post some of those photos later. first i need to work on my homework that i've been putting off. :P

I like the photos well enough, while i was wandering in the woods, i found this amazing abandoned house, and i took photos of that. i NEED to post those. :)

Now, i'll see you all later! i'm going to go do that horrible homework and dance to some Beck.