Never let them take you alive

gah.

anyone else notice that during long, overdone sex scenes, people often find random things to talk about to fill in the silence?

"uuuhm, nice flowers over there..."

"where? on the screen? yeah, never thought of that before..."

"I meant the one's on your table."

yeah...

I'm so vexed right now.

"Do you fear death?" "You have no idea."

This will be the summer of movies, books, and one obsession.

Two random things about me:
1. I always carry around a number of things that make me "Me". A slip of paper bearing a metaphor, lyrics written on my wrist, a hairpin hidden, and two necklaces, one around my neck and one hidden clasped above me heart but ending on my stomach. And a piece of eight in my shoe. or my pocket. Depends.

2. I'm always with a song stuck in my head, sadly it's always the same song.

Wow, love, how I hate mixed signals.

I have a dress? woah, where'd that come from? even more surprising, I'm wearing it at the moment. Odd.

Eunuchs. All of them.

So I graduated Jr. High School today... The ceremony was extensive, sweaty, and irritating, but at least no one tripped, I formed a friendship based on watching eachother's backs during promotion with Caleb, and I obviously graduated. And I decided that I really don't care who sees me dancing, i love doing it anyway.

I broke up with the boyfriend today. welll, he broke up with me... in a text message... whatever. I don't care, I really do plan on still being close friends, no matter how cliche that sounds. Here's luck to you, Michael.

Wow. I'm going to miss me Jr. High... odd to hear me say it, I've almost despised this place after the first few weeks of my first year there. But I am going to miss it. That school has seen the most of my growing up, opening new eyes, and learning to survive. It's hallways hold most of my adolescent memories, and it's auditorium hosts my newfound love of acting. It's rafters are my veins. Thats all I need to say.

Sure, the highschool may be interesting, but I'm not really looking forward to it. there's irony to you.

I'm almost getting tired.

And this promises to be a very eventful summer.

This promises to be a very eventful summer already.

Field trip to go bowling and see a movie today!

thats all.

I still have no clue.

Graduation is soon... friday, to be exact. I've mixed feelings about this. And we had to have this horrible "promotion practice" or whatever all day yesterday. I'll admit I did enjoy that one. Gave me something different to do.

I have this song stuck in my head: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=E305bcG5JNU   I love that  movie. :)

So the school year is winding down. Next year, I'm going to be at the high school... god. It's almost really depressing (I don't know why) to think I'm leaving this place. My old school. And there's no traces that I used to be there except the crappy lyrics I wrote in my math book. Even the locker is completely bare, no tape residue to say I used to exist there.

So, I really need to break up with my botfriend. I really do like him, just not in that way. Just as a good friend, but I'm not sure how to tell him that without sounding really cheap and bitchy. And I do hate to hurt someone.

To be happier, I took some photos I like, I've a new dress for graduation, and summer is soon. :)

I have a "roll model"  now.

I'm drawng a new picture, of the rolll model. sadly it's really crappy.

I'm attempting to re learn guitar.

Yes, I have a new obsession too.

I've something I wish I could speak of.

I toppled a line of motorcycles yesterday...

Brown Sugar- The Rolling Stones
Down to Earth- Peter Gabriel
Boy in the Bubble- Paul Simon
Hound Dog- Elvis Presley
White Houses- Vanessa Carlton
Hysteria- Muse
Ten Million Slaves- Otis Taylor
Johnny Cash- Hurt
Graceland- Paul Simon
Piano Man- Billy Joel
We Want the Airwaves-Ramones
Don't Look Back in Anger- Oasis
Punk Bitch- 3OH!3
Let's Dance to Joy Division- The Wombats
Love Song- Wingnut Dishwasher's Union
Love Song- The Cure
I've Got You Under My Skin- Frank Sinatra
The Captain and The Hourglass- Laura Marling
Gimme Shelter- The Rolling Stones
Let It Be- The Beatles
Grapevine Fires- Death Cab For Cutie
Ace of Spades- Motorhead
Pretty Handsom Awkward- The Used
My Only- Goodnight Nurse
Music Was My First Love- John Miles



(music was my first love, it's sure to be my last.)
(Story of my life.)